take heart!

down time:) alas.

One week has come and gone sadly just as fast as I imagined it would. The roller coaster of a schedule has definitely taken its toll, but clas

ses are so great, people are wonderful, and the Lord remains faithful-- How often do I doubt that? And how silly of me to even question that my God will move. He's awesome, you know?

It's been a week filled with a fair share of convictions. After the summer my life certainly isn't the same, but coming back to this home and these surroundings, it's ridiculous how quick I am to fall back into old habits. Even with the downfalls, it's been a real sweet time to see how the Word comes into play when I begin to fall. Also really interesting to see how I've reacted. In some instances I've allowed the Lord to take control, in others, I've tried to manipulate the Word, somehow managing to make it seem okay since I'm giving him control of other aspects of my messy life. That, my friends, is not alright, and of that I am wellllllll aware. That's just sad. So, I woke up this morning, opened the sweet Bibe, and lone behold, Psalm 95:6-8

"Oh come, let us worship and bow down; let us kneel before the Lord , our Maker!

For he is our God, and we are the people of his pasture, and the sheep of his hand. Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts.." Well, there it is; I've been straight up hardening my heart; being cold towards my Dad. It feels like it takes so much will power and makes living so much more difficult, and yet, I do it. Ridiculous. Ridiculously stubborn, haha. Just gotta keep praying the Lord will strip me of that dang stubbornness, that's not an attractive trait by any means. . BUT the fact that I know the Lord is changing and renewing my heart and spirit inwardly and outwardly(2 cr 4:16 ;) is enough to keep from being discouraged. Take heart! eh? (Reminder to self, quit saying 'eh'--not from Canada..) but seriously.. Proverbs 28:14 "Blessed is the one who fears the lord always, but whoever hardens his heart falls into calamity." So, so true. Learning that the hard way. Pieces of joy time, yay:) CLASSES!!! ...but seriously, i love them :) JULES GETTING ENGAGED!!!!!! She'll make such a beautiful bride. And Eric is so great, too. Gosh:) attempting to decorate my room feeling grown up volleyball in the rain! trying to rid my sweet watch tanline, leaving my wrist severely burnt seeing my housemates being reunited with old friends walks in the forest good conversation going through wedding mags with jules getting to know some seriously humble folks awkward moments buying a curtain that's atleast 2 feet shorter than the other my bed rolling around on the hardwood floor every second carrying Mason Mac to class:) being re-taught guitar, and discovering my complete lack of rhythm, but still loving it, and admiring those who can play my sweet new job in the University Television station, thank you Lord for that hearing about people's summers and being super encouraged seeing my beach projecters! new friends:) sorting through dozens of pictures still not having my television plugged in, and enjoying it running up the hills in Milledge, and feeling it. discovering that the Lord will provide energy to get through the day going to the laundry mat and running out of money, then running to cvs across the street to get more money, and the coin machine at the mat eating my 5 dolla bill...sweeeet loving Mass Communications, haha, nerd. being reunited with elle:) jules' "blingin' ring!" making pizza! and salad! and brownies with jake. AND it tasted great:) who would've thought. laughing to the point of tears while taking pictures on Mason-- ie: tae and i on a rollercoaster, obviously.hahah.. that's all for now:) hope you're amused his love.