castaway

Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall." Psalm 55:22 (NIV)

hm.

sitting in the hospital room with my dad right now, almost ironic considering last night's finale of Greys Anatomy. he had to have an emergency surgery on his poor little appendix. the dang thing almost ruptured, but all's well now...just lying there sleeping, and sleeping,...and sleeping. 

this is such a weird experience for me though, i've never seen my own father like this--so..vulnerable, really. even though he's going to be fine, it's just a scary thing. watching someone you love so much kind of being helpless. 

 

mom is resting on the sweet, stiff couch. she's been up since 1 am last night with him. "in sickness and in health" she loves him. :)and i love that.

 

this morning i woke up to a text from mom (never thought that day would come) that said " dad in hospital, surgery at 8:30". probably my least favorite text..ever. so, packed my things, grabbed a yogurt, and hit the road..in my pjs. i don't think i've ever felt so..anxious before on a ride home. it was like this sense of urgency to get here as fast as i possibly could. 

all safety measures aside, i did exactly that. made record time, too:)

 

i couldn't decide if i was scared, worried, anxious, unsure--maybe a mixture of the bunch, but either way i wasn't in control of this situation. really, i shouldn't be in control of any situation. God had it, and still has it. 

 

"He is before all things, and in him all things hold together." Colossians 1:17     ...yeaaah, he's got it:)

his love.